THE PAIN OF FEELING INVISIBLE.

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The pain of feeling invisible

Imagine being alive but not feeling alive

Sucks right? Trust me I know.

When you’re trying to be a better person and no one notices your efforts

When you are speaking but it seems like no is listening

You’re working but no one still sees you

Damn! It sucks

Often times you just sit and you just like I’m so done with trying to make this person or group of people see me. Deep down you want to not care about what they think but whenever you see them you just find yourself trying again. You just go to your little corner at night or during the day and you just sit there sad with tears in your eyes because why won’t someone just tell me they see me and they can see my efforts. But the truth is if we were confident in ourselves we won’t need anyone to praise us because we will appreciate our own efforts even without anyone telling us they see us. Don’t get me wrong, I know sometimes it’ll just be fair to hear someone tell you how much they appreciate what you do, but what happens when no one tells you that? I know the normal we’re used to is feeling sad about it but hey!! It’s time to change that. Truth be told not everyone is going to appreciate you, some it’s because they don’t even know your value so they can’t appreciate what they know not the value of.

Self-appreciation is very crucial in our daily lives, it should be part of your checklist every morning. Tyler Perry said and I quote ‘Y’all go ahead and do that. While you’re fighting for a seat at the table, I’ll be down in Atlanta building my own.’ What I know for sure is that if I could just build this table, God will prepare it for me in the presence of my enemies. We spend so much time trying to fit into a table that barely even has space for our seats or that barely even notices our presence or absence when we can be the head of our own table. Tyler Perry had to first sit at other people’s table and I’m sure even though no one paid attention to him, he was learning and paying attention to the important things that he used to groom himself in order to start his own table.

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Not everyone might be given the opportunity to start their own table at first, but it’s up to us to determine if we are going to remain at other people’s table forever or if we’re going to be smart to take the vital points from wherever table we find ourselves in and use it to ascertain ours. Don’t just sit there and wallow in how much no one notices you and do something that will make them look up to you. Appreciate yourself first because if you depend on other people for appreciation and approval, one day it would be taken away and you might fall back to square 1. Do things for you and not for the applause of other people. In your education, your work, your home, your church, your relationships, etc do things because they’re right and for yourself and God that sees what you do in secret would reward you openly.